每一天都是新開始 每個挑戰都是感恩之始
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a B-e-autiful Sunday =)

had the urge to run through all my previous entries just now... not on blogger.. the ones on diaryland... they were dated all the way back to 2003 =) kinda funny the amount of details i use to blog.. now that im looking back.. its a very good reference of wat my life's been like for the past two years... probably got a tad bit more mature.. due to failures.. and that's about it

u know how when u were young, u'd have dreams and then u'd kinda think.. i'd be doing this and that.. when im 20 then when im 25.. i'd do this.. i remember thinking that being in the 20s was like a whole lightyear away.. i had all the dreams in the world.. and looking at me today.. i have nothing.. im still nothing.. and im closer to being nothing than ever.. looking at the degree that im barely hanging on to... seeing no light at the end of this.. maybe i was never persistent enough.. or i was too persistent at one point.. that it left me too little time to change.. watever it is.. i admit it was fully my fault and no one's to blame, cuz i know i could've worked harder for some things.. i could've tried harder.. but that's in the past.. i read my post and remembered how happy i was.. to pass stats finally =) and i remembered at that moment.. i've decided that my road downhill finally ended... im gonna move up from now on.. i will NOT let me repeat my failures.. and i will move on to believe i can do watever i want to do. i will i will i will.

just realized that there's never black or white.. no distinct boundary.. reality is grey.. we all set our personal border lines.. there are always exceptions, there are always issues to deal with, always something be considerate of but we're always just humans. anyways, sometimes when u step back and just take a look at ur own situation.. everything will seem more clear cut. an observer sees much more than when ur trapped within urself.. u'd try so hard to block things outta ur mind.. that it becomes unconciously done.. as much as we'd like to simplify life.. we complicate things all the time.. by thinking and rethinking the extra bits and bites of it all.... we all KNOW better... *sigh*... smile and pray.. and stay focus on wat's at hand =)

its funny that lately im feeling quite blessed and happy with my life, happier than i've been in awhile.. wat ever happens.. will happen.. watever happened.. is over.. life goes on =) its all about focus! hehe live in the present moment as Fr Leung/Ching would say.. seriously.. how many times have we heard "count ur blessings" hm... rite now ... i feel very at peace.. to be in good terms with my surroundings.. and my life. smile =)