sighhhh...

hm.. remember how people keep saying... as long as someone takes the time to yell at you, to be pissed at you, to hate you, that means they still care about u enough to at least.. put u in their thoughts. hmm.. never truly realized wat it meant.. to completely just.. not care.. after 11 years of waiting and defending him.. after the past 4 years of excitement and hopes.. and disappointments and tears.. it comes to this day.. that i truly dont care. september 18th.. it would've meant so much for me otherwise.. it was a good show, and maybe we were just too extremes in all that we do.. but everything was out of a good heart.. just.. *sigh*..

haha a vancouver fans gathering... why. im gonna stop explaining and justifying him, no more exceptions no more excuses for his doings, just watever. it was such a long journey.. that's coming to an end. at the end of his concert.. it said "just believe, dreams come true" and i agree completely.. that dreams DO come true.. not everyone's dream get to come true tho.. and definitely not ALL dreams, im sure everyone do get shattered dreams once in a while, the ones that u just cant piece back together; i'd rather be thinking that he actually WANTED to come but couldnt make it.. and not.. he came.. but didnt want to see us. its sad to think back at all the crazy moments.. and realize and see how different things are now.. i wish nothing happened.. that he never came and i'll just be here waiting for my kiddy dream to come true... because at least then everything will still be ideally in my mind...

終於做了這個決定 別人怎麼說我不理
只要你也一樣的肯定 我願意天涯海角都隨你去
我知道一切不容易 我的心一直溫習說服自己
最怕你忽然說要放棄

愛真的需要勇氣 來面對流言蜚語
只要你一個眼神肯定 我們的愛就有意義

如果我的堅強任性 會不小心傷害了你
你能不能溫柔提醒 我雖然心太急 更害怕錯過你

sooo jokes.