today while on the subway.. i remembered an advice my friend told me.. there are many ways to love people, and sometimes to love.. even means to keep distance.... true say... if u know the situation will lead to something else... then by all means avoid it.. haha its like if u know ur likely to sin in that situation, then why put urself in it? ... thnx. i couldnt get it then.. but i get it now, i think its for the better, i'd rather be blah now, than for us to be sad later. sometimes i just want to laugh, everything is just one big joke.

at ccc we talked about preparing ourselves for death.. (yes wuss.. i made it.. career center closes at 4pm today... but yesterday closed at 7pm. why.) how can we ever say we're prepared for death? there'll never be a moment when we're just.. ready to go. i definitely need to go to confession first.. haha.. and definitely need to tell my friends and family that i love you! and then i have to go eat mango cheese cake from Maxim and eat chicken wings from maywah and eat... etc. the conclusion from my group was.. we should live each day to the fullest (eat to the max?) live as if its the last day we'll ever be alive! =) i dont know why.. but just typing this out is making me feel better.. its just such a great relief as catholics to know that there will be a better tomorrow.. well if not tomorrow.. a better afterlife than the current hell. oh and auntie vennie told us, there's this site that u can go in and write an email to ur friends and family, and when u die they'll automatically send it off to them... its prettie cool, eh? but .. how do they know.. that u died.. ? haha as she called it.. are they connected to the 'death system'? quite scary.

talked to eddieboo earlier today.. and realize we worry too much, haha despite actually KNOWING that we worry too much, we cant help it but to continue on this way... old people will tell us.. you guys are so dumb, worry so early, reallie no need, years later you'll look back and laugh at ur stupidity... haha.. truly everday is already filled with too many uncertainties, if we worry at this rate, it will just be never ending... worry now, laugh tm. pointless, therefore.. be happy with who you are, with wat you have, dont think urself useless =)
miss my Boos.