just at this moment.. reflecting on my days.. and wondering why certain things are the way they are now.. why i think this way, why i act this way, why we hurt this way, why things happen this way... really, the origins of all pains and heartaches, of all misunderstandings and arguments, is all because of our selfishness.. there are people you wanna see, you wanna talk to, there are people you avoid and ignore, watever it is, when the denial is over, in the end there's guilt and regret... because we know, i know, that it was yet another act of selfishness.. maybe one lucky thing is.. we're all the same, it will come back to you. not like that would justify me, but it somehow brings comfort. my song. very true. comes to mind everytime.

其實我們一樣自私
只保留讓自己快樂的方式
卻總是誤解別人的心事
不斷的自以為是

其實我們一樣幼稚
只在乎自己哭過了多少次
說感情像長不大的孩子
不斷的敷衍了事