havent updated for abit.. not much happened.. saturday had a fluss shopping day then went to see final destination 3.. its totally horrific... scared the living soul outta me.... sunday.. went to good shepherd refuge with my GT buds.. it made me feel good.. today went to study with chobooo.. cuz i thought my placement was tm.. so i figured.. i must study the stupid textbook before i go and make a fool outta myself tm... and that's cuz.. i always thought the placement.. was tomorrow.. tuesday.

but as i was typing out the preparation questions JUST now.. i realized.. that i wrote down feb 24th... and of course tm is not the 24th.. then i realized.. oh i thought it was the 24th cuz my stupid kubi calendar is still on January.. and Jan 24th is a tuesday... dammit.. so.. i was thinking.. shit.. feb 24th that's a thursday! i need to call around and get people to take my shift!.... cuz i already left early cuz of the stupid stomach flu today.. and if i called in sick on thursday i'd totally die.. and.. be totally guilty... so i called and begged and asked.. and no one can take it.. so im like.. oh watever then.. then i looked again at my calendar.. Feb.. 24th.. its a FRIDAY. now i gotta call the same people.. and get them to take my shift on friday.. they'll think im making up stories.. ai.. just.. argh. anyways.. on that one fine day a few weeks ago.. when the guy from the company first called i was sleeping.. and.. seriously.. i dont know if he said.. Tuesday.. or the 24th.. i wrote down the 24th.. but i remembered asking him if it was a tuesday? so it mite well be tomorrow.. and i'll just miss it.. i just emailed him to .. "reconfirm"... i hope its not tm.. please dont let it be tm.. i feel so dumb.. and where's everyone? nobody.. all gonee.. boo. i dont think i can ever get over this dumbness. just this morning.. i made a committment to myself.. that im gonna be independent.. that i'll stay on top of things.. and try harder for everything.. i'll be independent.. and be in charge of my own happiness.. and not need other people.. but anyways so in the end.. i feel like shit rite now.. already screwed up once today with this phone screening process.. bs a whole bunch... and messed it up.. and now.. haha THIS.. good thing i realized now and not tm, i guess? or hopefully.. its not tm? now that i've decided not to bother with it tm? ai blah.