*beam*

oh so tired =) but happy...

after sleeping for 11 hours last nite... i still feel dead.. i think i can sleep forever =P

went shopping with my mom today =) it was amazingly pleasant. we went to eat afternoon tea.. and she was telling me all about stuff i didnt care much for.. haha i dont know half the people she was mentioning... but ya.. and she has a job interview next monday! it was funny.. haha dont want to publicize it here.. but it made me realize how much she does care... she was telling me.. something when i saw the joy in her eyes.. like they were sparkling at me, cuz she was just SO happy to be telling me.. and i realize... i was never fair to my mom.. despite everyone telling me that im rude to her and watever else.. i just cant stand her. i'm always so blocked out by her weaknesses.. im not even like that towards anyone else except her, there's just always a barrier between us... hm.. after today.. or starting from today.. i'll try harder, to appreciate our moments, rather than dwell on her weaknesses and wat cant be changed. pray for me

hahaha went to my favourite T & T with yee just now.. and i bought something for my dad!! guess wat it is guess wat it is? hahaha.. LAYS ! its Pizza flavoured! so funny... thnx yee for sticking up with my craziness.. hahaha i was much too tired to care about being nuts in public.. anyways.. so funny.. so i came home just now, and my dad just came outta the showers... and im like "DADDDY" so damn loud hahah that the dog started growling.. and i went to him "i got ur favourite food!" and he looked at my T&T bag.. and he's like... "wat did u buy? are u sure its something i like?" and im like.. "一定鐘意"... wahahahaha..then i reached in my bag.. took it out.. and.. "阿祖....好鐘意食層層疊薯片..." hahahaha we started laughing for sooo long.. then he said.. "都唔係呢個味道...." *hon2* then i walk out hahaha

appreciate my parents =)... afterall nothing should be taken for granted.. haha and screw my brother wahahahhaa..

ohoh.. one last thing.. just found out.. that friendster? they have a "who viewed me" option.. hahaha just super glad i've been busy and not been attached to friendster for the past month.. cuz now.. apparently.. other people can all check who visited the page and stuff.. boo... no privacy man. big boo.

just loveeee =)

hehe look at justin he's so cute here, they look so sweet.. and.. leo's just.. being cocky. blah. after talking to karen s. today.. and the msg from the forum.. i've decided.. i should move onnnnn =) obviously.. leo's way too busy for me.. and for us in toronto apparently.. watever, anyways, i'd post my picture with justin here hahahhaa.. but haha u'd be too jealous =P thnxboo

*for nonleo fans...hmm... u mite not agree with.. the following entry haha*

不要哭 我也忍得了這些年來的委曲

11 years.. it was worth waiting.. hard to describe wat i feel.. like the way i feel that we grew up together.. from his kiddie rhymes.. to his sunshine styles.. to his bittersweet songs.. there's just been countless times.. when there just seems to be no one.. and his voice can make ur day better.. he's been like.. a close friend.. that i admire.. because he can carry on wat he wants to do.. he still does charity work.. and still draws his comics... but still carry a career... and to prove everybody wrong... today he's standing up again with his success.. just like at the end of the concert.. *believe that your dreams will come true*... his did =) the years we'd have to defend him.. and still stand at his side.. the years when the world question his whereabouts. *beam* so proud of him.. that now.. he's finally acknownledged.. and recognized.. not like it matter to me much.. but im sure it means the world to him... funny how i scroll down my msn list and discover.. so many went to his concert. *RIGHT kk.. i agree*

at first i was thinking.. maybe its a good idea that i never got a chance to meet him.. in my mind.. he's always sooo ideal.. he's perfect... ofcoz he has his flaws.. but in general.. he's an ideal man. *proud*.... i was afraid that meeting him.. would be like losing him 'ideal image'... but hehe boy am i glad i got to meet him.. he's just so much fun.. and everything i imagined him to be... but only more =)

i never got the chance to say bye in person.. but i was outside the terminal wishing with all my heart that i could be there... *deep sigh* nonetheless... doesnt matter if i was there today or not... he shaped me into who i am today, as much as none of u would agree... he's just been such a huge part of my life.. i wouldnt know wat'd happen... if i didnt feel his support.. love my leo =) love my kukus =) thnx *me*

鎖於心裡沒提起 但我怎麼都再難忘記
在那一天可相遇你 都可算這生的福氣
風光轉眼是危機 歷遍很多知道無完美
是你始終看管我天地 叫我自由去飛沒退避

來日我到那樣年紀 最燦爛晨曦都因你起 :)

we have our plans.. and God has His plans.. and everything will flow along smooth and well... if we can only work towards Him and trust.. that wherever we're heading... its the way... we pray.. we think and we worry.. it seems like.. everyday there's something new to worry about, someone new u'd discovered that'd need the extra push, we're humans... we worry, we have our own minds and thoughts... but when u think about it.. today is yours... but tomorrow mite already be a different story.. why bother thinking too far ahead rite? live today to the fullest.. thank God for giving u any day to work with.. smile and enjoy the day =)

things happen.. and we'll never understand why, but that's the way it has to be, trust that its the best already, so many people to pray for and tonite especially for Joel, he was a good guy, sigh.. involved motivated popular well-rounded, God Bless your soul and your family. RIP

72%... blah.. 2.7

yee.. just give me 1%.. booo..
blah.. just onneeeee
not only if i have one percent more.. maybe if i worked one percent harder? hon2