Friday, May 25, 2007

The world won't care about your self-esteem. The world will expect you to accomplish something BEFORE you feel good about yourself.

Life is not divided into semesters. You don't get summers off and very few employers are interested in helping you find yourself. Do that on your own time.

Television is NOT real life. In real life people actually have to leave the coffee shop and go to jobs.

Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one


true say... words from bill gates

Thursday, May 24, 2007

懶得去管

Sunday, May 20, 2007

happy victoria day =) i can hear fireworks outside... well glad someone out there is having fun out there... errr...

just having a bitter day... or a pretty bitter weekend altogether...
my house is so noisy right now, i cant even hear myself think, a lot of people are over for the bbq tonight, and playing mah jong and laughing and talking... well more like screaming at this moment... dont know whats with me these days, just... would much prefer silence...
spent my day studying... spent my weekend studying... didnt do anything other than studying... i cant say i have no time... havent really been using it wisely, wish i learnt not to procrastinate... just like back in school... the day before the exam... 'next time.. next time i'll have to start sooner' ... i would study now.. except they're so loud downstairs, cant think, cant study, cant sleep... but .. no one to talk to, dont want to talk to anyone. dont want to bother anyone. cant do anything... just.. sit and wait til these people can leave my house...

just having a weak moment... i just want to sleep right now... just need to get to work early tomorrow, just need to get home early to study, just want to get everything over with, just want to breath and sit... and relax again... just want to live my life back, a life without rushing.

i wish i was at mariapolis right now... miss it too too much... miss the people... miss the love... miss the 'see Jesus in everyone'... havent tried hard enough lately to live out the spirit, its true, i guess if i can try harder, we can always live out mariapolis in our everyday lives rite? be the first to love... this is what i have to keep in mind... so difficult right now... wish i can feel the love and peace right now... the way it felt when i came back from mariapoolis last year. SIGH. tomorrow.. tomorrow will be a better day.

Sunday, May 06, 2007

today as usual, went to unionville library to study, got really cold in there, so i went out to walk to enjoy the beautiful sunny day... outside the library, there were three girls, sitting around a table with a jar of something and some cups, at first i didnt really.. notice them, i didnt really care, i was just wandering and looking for another table so i can bring all my books out and study =P but then one of the girls caught my attention, as she stood up holding a sign and started dancing and hopping around to get my attention... "fresh lemonade, 25 cents"

bought a smile to my face =) reminds me of the books i use to read back in elementary school, babysitters club? they always sell lemonade or have bake sales to raise money... such simple pure minded girls, even though, nowadays they're prolly trying to raise money to buy a wii or something instead of a bike =P just bought back memories watching them play, life used to be that simple... saturdays and sundays were days of just... nothing to do, relaxing and just playing and enjoying the weather, the company, and just being simple... and happy...

now all my days become a blur... everyday's the same, too much on my mind, so tired of thinking, so much to do.. haha and lastly.. SO MUCH TO READ! -____-"

i remember last week, sister cora reminded us to live life to the fullest, to always remember john 10:10, whatever question we ask God, this is always the answer, whatever is happening in our lives, rejoice every moment, whatever we have to do, whatever we have to sacrifice, for ourselves or for others, it is so that we may have life, life to the fullest.. john 10:10 .... so that we may have life, life to the fullest...

now with all that said... tomorrow.. yet another day to rush through, so much to do, so little time, how do u pause and praise? how do u have life to the fullest... i know this will end soon, but in the meantime, Lord help me move forward and find you and rejoice in everything i need to do tomorrow... Amen.