人海十萬里　誰又一天一天　誰又一點一點　留心你　
你要日後成大器　灰灰的天都要撐起　誰可善待你　
由自己的嘴巴　和自己講一聲　要爭氣

-_-" note to self: today is THE day. period.

這是一家公司要招收新的職員其中一個測試的問題…… 你開著一輛車。 在一個暴風雨的晚上。 你經過一個車站。 有三個人正在等公共汽車。 一個是快要死的老人，好可憐的。 一個是醫生，他曾救過你的命，是大恩人，你做夢都想報答他。 還有一個女人/男人，她/他是那種你做夢都想娶/嫁的人，也許錯過就沒有了。 但你的車只能坐一個人，你會如何選擇那？請解釋一下你的理由。
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我不知道這是不是一個對你性格的測試, 因為每一個回答都有他自己的原因。 老人快要死了，你首先應該先救他。 然而，每個老人最後都只能把死作為他們的終點站, 你先讓那個醫生上車，因為他救過你，你認為這是個好機會報答他。 同時有些人認為一樣可以在將來某個時候去報答他, 但是你一旦錯過了這個機會，你可能永遠不能遇到一個讓你這么心動的人了。 在200個應徵者中，只有一個人被雇傭了，他並沒有解釋他的理由，他只是說了以下的話 “給醫生車鑰匙，讓他帶著老人去醫院，而我則留下來陪我的夢中情人一起等公車！” 每個人我認識的人都認為以上的回答是最好的，但沒有一個人（包括我在內）一開始想到。 是否是因為我們從未想過要放棄我們手中已經擁有的優勢（車鑰匙）？ 有時，如果我們能放棄一些我們的固執，狹隘，和一些優勢的話，我們可能會得到更多。

copy and paste from a forum.... something to think about ... hahaha 而我則留下來陪我的夢中情人一起等公車！hahahahahhaa

came back from another wedding this past weekend... a beautiful wedding.. everything was perfect, and very very happy for the newly weds =) i must say... that never can we stress enough, that the most important commandment is to love. and in their wedding ceremony and the banquet dinner, their love is so radiant, that you know they love each other so so much, and with God in the midst of them, that they not only love each other, but truly tries to live out a life of love and joy among all people... so considerate of everyones' feelings even on a day that they can legitimately call theirs. you can reallie truly see them living out their faith... *cuz if we're united, God is among us*

i know that certain moments or certain people can turn the joy of loving into a difficult task, at times, ur evilness and selfishness comes in... and the 'love' you first commit to can possibly turn into a task that you end up being fake. i hate it when i feel this way.. and it hurts even more to see other people like that. i guess when i know i am selfish, at least i can tell myself.. when others are like that to a point that i can see their intentions... there's really nothing to say, except pray.... dont know.. i'd rather not know or not care sometimes.. but watever... anyways, im sure we've came across this bible passage before, haha its like.. in everyone's wedding mass hahaha... an explanation of concrete love.

Love is patient and is kind; love doesn't envy. Love doesn't brag, is not proud,doesn't behave itself inappropriately, doesn't seek its own way, is not provoked, takes no account of evil; doesn't rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth;bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

愛得太遲

古巨基
詞：林夕

我過去 那死黨 早晚共對 各也紮職以後 沒法 暢聚
而終於 相約到 但無言共對 疏淡如水
日夜做 見爸爸 剛好想呻 卻霎眼 看出他 多了皺紋
而他的蒼老感 是從來未覺 太內疚擔心

最心痛是 愛得太遲 有些心意 不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮 忙忙忙其實自私
夢中也習慣 有壓力要我得志
最可怕是 愛需要及時 只差一秒 心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆 見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好 偏要推說等下一次

我也覺 我體質 彷似下降 看了症得到是 別要太忙
而影碟 都掃光 但從來未看 因有事趕
日夜做 儲的錢 都應該夠 到聖誕 正好講 跟我白頭
誰知她開了口 未能挨下去 已恨我很久

錯失太易 愛得太遲 我怎想到 她忍不到那日子
盲目地發奮 忙忙忙從來未知
幸福會掠過 再也沒法說鍾意
愛一個字 也需要及時 只差一秒 心聲都已變歷史
為何未放肆 見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好 不要相信一切有下次

相擁我所愛又花幾多秒 這幾秒 能夠做到又有多少
未算少 足夠遺憾忘掉

多少抱憾 多少過路人 太懂估計 卻不懂愛錫自身
人人在發奮 想起他朝都興奮
但今晚未過 你要過也很吸引
縱不信運 你不過是人 理想很 愛於咫尺卻在等
來日別操心 趁你有能力開心
世界有太多東西發生 不要等到天上俯瞰

just came across these lyrics, and after reading the news today... about the lives and victims claimed by wars, extreme weather conditions, tsunami, earthquakes... wanted to post it to remind everyone to love... who knows what's gonna happen tomorrow... have a good day =)

my game my game!

rachel just sent me a newer version of this game i used to be SOOOOO addicted to.. the hammer game with the number keypad!! hahaha.. im sure i've sent it to everyone like.. a year or so ago.. and now its back.. try it try it! advice from cho.. FOCUS -_-" hahaha more focused on this than hw new version!

to my sor por.. omg omg omg + congrats congrats congrats x 10 billion = wishing u allllll the best =) hehehehehehehe cant stop smiling.. makes me look forward to 2007...wahahaha... guessed right, im so smart. *pray4u*

and i must mention.. haha.. thanks to everyone who contributed to helping me collect my 20 spongebobs.. i gave them to john (so pro.. photographer).. and he's taking pics of them.... click on spongeeee to the rest of the pics.. makes me happy to see them =) wahahaha..

hm. world cup...disturbed that france lost. zidane reallie led all of the france games.. and without the leader... well.. and without the penalty kicker... boo... wat a way to end zidane's retirement. headbutting... what did that italian dude say to him man... to get his this pissed off... someone find out... and lemme know.

last nite.. haha finally tried out some indian food =) had tons of fun with the yummies, and mo liu ness and gelato on Main... *love* thnx for the smiles and laughter girlies! haha.... just hope.. that no one we knew saw us =P

definitely a worrie-free and stress-less nite.. *beam* just very glad to see that everyone seem to be feeling better =)

just at this moment.. reflecting on my days.. and wondering why certain things are the way they are now.. why i think this way, why i act this way, why we hurt this way, why things happen this way... really, the origins of all pains and heartaches, of all misunderstandings and arguments, is all because of our selfishness.. there are people you wanna see, you wanna talk to, there are people you avoid and ignore, watever it is, when the denial is over, in the end there's guilt and regret... because we know, i know, that it was yet another act of selfishness.. maybe one lucky thing is.. we're all the same, it will come back to you. not like that would justify me, but it somehow brings comfort. my song. very true. comes to mind everytime.

其實我們一樣自私
只保留讓自己快樂的方式
卻總是誤解別人的心事
不斷的自以為是

其實我們一樣幼稚
只在乎自己哭過了多少次
說感情像長不大的孩子
不斷的敷衍了事

[it takes courage to grow up and become who you really are]
on the plaque from bethie =)

janus' grade 8 graduation at montessori... a bunch of grade 8s dressed as if they were there for Miss America... i hardly even remember my grade 8 graduation..they were standing up and thanking their teachers, friends and parents for the support through the years.. in shaping them to be sophisticated young adults (?!)... the principle made a speech that was reallie touching, he refered to a quote by robert frost "Home is the place where, when you have to go there, They have to take you in" .....the older you become, the more you realize that its true... and the principal was saying that their school will always be open to them just like a home, that's exactly wat elementary school is, you grow up with these people and let them shape up who you are.

a few nites ago was my bro's highschool graduation.. held in a banquet hall, with reception and stuff (wat's with all these grads with banquet halls and reception now.. mine was at a church... blah!)There was this quote that the principal mentioned "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure." we may often ask ourselves.. or i do anyways.. who am i to do this, who am i to be useful, to do good, to be talented... to be.. to be... etc etc. in the end i guess it all comes down to self esteem and how much you believe that God made you.. as someone of worth... this message reallie got thru to me this time.. believe in who you could be, with the power you have, over your own choices, your actions... their valedictorian said.. highschool was like a roller coaster ride, u go in head first, going up the hill.. all worriedsick.. then all of a sudden ur coming down and doing the loops before u can stop, its like how they went in highschool.. head first.. and all the decisions have to be done in a rush, through the ups and downs the turns the twists, still hanging on, screaming and constantly moving forward, because there's no time to pause... its just go go and go... but after graduation, when the ride is over, when we feel that we can finally take a rest, or when we give ourselves an excuse to stop and just... run away from everything, and STOP making any more choices, any more bad decisions and just dwell on the platform and be on safe ground... but life is not like that, it will not stop for us because we want to stop... life goes on.. any time u dwell standing around ends up to be time wasted.. and time flies...

graduation.. moving on to the next chapter in life.. experiencing more fear than excitement, facing another unfamiliar and yet a larger world... one more step to the real world... Didnt get much of anything from my own convo, but surely heard some touching speeches from a grade 8 grad and a highschool graduation that i got to attend =) it felt like reliving the stages of my life one step at a time. seeing and feeling what life was back then, the effort i've put in and how far i've came since. it just so happens that all of our graduations are within this period, and the message dawned on me more so now than ever before... that truly, our current ride is over, but a new ride awaits, we cannot stop because we want to, we have the power to make our own decisions.. just gotta remind myself.. your worst enemy is urself, takes a life time of effort to learn and be better at living.

despite all that.. i cant help but just feeling down.. maybe cuz there's work tm. hm.