nov 19th.... 12 days to go... just 12 more days...

if i knew wat i wanted, if this was truly my goal, if i had my mind set on it all along, i wouldnt be at this stage right now... from today onwards, this will be my only focus, i throw away enough money as is, ask me why im doing this to myself again.

called in sick at work today... mentally sick of that place... i need a break, i dont know how people can go to work everyday, the thought of going to work makes me want to puke, i dont hate this job, but im definitely not enjoying it... they need to do something more for me, this is not enough, too much pressure, too much commitment, i just dont want to go anymore, i just want to stay home sick everyday... guess its time to change jobs? need to set up a career. but dont want to think.

going back to hk soon =) cant wait for your wedding day... cant wait til im free from work... looking forward for the 2nd... but wishing i can skip over the 1st. kill me now.