finally finished the assignment!.. tedious.. haha thnx for completing my LIFE! .... and my answers! =) love yeeee. haha behind every lazy bum there must be someone hardworking =P i think... hm... i had too much caffine today ... @.@ haha.. cant fall asleep and dont want to think about logic no more.... boring. boring. boring

haha kinda excited to get tm's midterm done and over with.. then i'll be free for a week =) joy! haha its gonna be funny.. i've never been to my phl class since the first lecture.. so.. it'd be nice to see who's actually.. IN my class =P

tm's the first day the GO train change schedules.. from 8:46am to 8:12am.. um... just wanna say... they're NUTS! i dont think i'll be able to make it haha and i dont want to... either viva or go bus. dilemma

and.. tm's also... pumpkin day. bittersweet... hugs for *me*. haha the difference a year can make.. or just one day. hon2

done done done DONE! wahahahaa

had the worstest midterm of all today... hm. oh well.. worry next week =)

went shopping with *me* at eaton's afterwards! and we saw the biggest man tou! hahah soooo hilarious.... it was the cutest thing! imagine... hehe... driving one?.. or.. EATING one?... with.. a duck.. or two? wahaha.. the JOY!

they had these shirts at ae.. hm... *me alone* hahaha

waiting for dinner... hungry tooo the MAX! haha ofcoz so skinny after walking over to eatons and then walk walk walk some more! *fobby pose* fries does not count. hm.

dinner.then sleep.good.

im blessed

currently.. hungry.eating crackers =) and.. DONE my paper!! too many pages of data sheets.. man.. how boring can it get.. anyways.. in the end.. procrastination always wins..

today started out to be a terrible day.. blah..the rain didnt help one bit.. and the fire alarm going off for 45 minutes in the mall was a bitch.. blahhhhh! glad it's all over! foood always always makes me feel better, and the company too! :) thank-you you, haha feel a whole lot better after being fai, and releasing my bitterness =P i will be more productive... and excel! *smile*

i finally connected to the school server!!! wahahahaaha! i mite be computer stupid.. but hey now i know how to network and do the virtual thing.. now if i can only figure out how to hack into rosi.. and.. change my gpa a little... =P seeing this vpn thing took me... 3 weeks.. i think the hacking would take.. 3 years flo-time. hon2

not staying on msn reallie works.. so from now on msn will not be my friend.. hahaha.. and msn space... wat a terrible terrible innovation.. -_-"

all day tm to study for my midterm and finish off my lab... =) sounds goooood.. im kinda excited to finally START doing SOMETHING for that subject. hm. hehe.. totally "cute prof.. boring course.. the irony"

my anthro mark.. wahaha 28/35.. + 1 bonus mark! *beam.love*

lots of ppl to pray for tonite... friends please take care... MJ. health first.

[whisper softly].... get the duck ready!! ... wait ... =( ...
.. why not.. duck(s) ???? .. =P wahahahaa HUNGRY!

i dont have time for this. wtf. fuck! is it too much to ask for the damn ass program to work. wat the hell.. reading error.. ok wtf. corrupted file.. fine. reinstall.. repair.. not responding. why. not. screw this friggin shit. fuck. waste of time waste of space and nothing works.. how many attempts was that. i just didnt plan on stressing.. over installation of a bitch program.. aRGH!

grant me patience..

one of my favourite passage.... *friends.havefaith* =)


"God has plans for a future of peace for you, not of misfortune; God wants to give you a future and hope." (Jeremiah 29:11)

smiley day =)

4 things done, 3 more to go.. *fobby pose* im oh so tired.. and i dont know why im hungry still.. watever.. hahaha... my headache is making me go nuts.. or just lack of sleep.. or proper sleep.. haha.. been laughing away all day long haha i almost feel sorrie for the people i've encountered today... due to my insanity. wahahahahahaha

i ran into dada on the train today.. and realized.. there's reallie nothing to worrie about.. all anybody need is a direction.. just have a goal.. and ready set go, you'll be on ur feet and moving.. hm.. so wat's my goal....

the midterm this morning was ok, it went well =) im so relieved that.. well that the test was as it is.. that i know even if i had spent more time studying instead of wasting time... i wouldnt have done any better =P and to top if all of.. wahahaha they both got my sms last nite! so GOOD STUFF!! im soooooo glad! boo u guys should've smsed me back tho! had me thinking the whole nite, haha, anyways, at least now i know we're on the same page for the assignment =) had a fabulous class today.. soo much fun.. laughed through the whole thing hahaha. *in-ta-cep-sion... yo!*

its been a good day.. hmmm... *a new day has now begun, forgive me for all i've done* i've decided.. once again.... im gonna start a more productive life from now on... haha friends, remind me pleassse! and maybe eat less... thnx to *me*... "Lord if you cant make me skinny, please make my friends fat" wahahahahaha. hallo friends!

and to yee... i apologize for not saving u any of the maltesers... please share half ur duck :P my formal request *iwanthalfaduck*

nuts.. gotta do research.

peace =)

124 outline... *need to concentrate*


hm.......boo.............................?

diligence.

mon: 206 lab #2, 206 midterm, 327 proposal, 245 assignment
wed: 124 paper
thurs: 373 lab#2, 373 midterm

... hm.. wat to do... for... tonite..
1)... change all the bible quotes version
2)... install stupid 373 program.. omg.. so i finally got it to work rite? like got pass the liscense and the vpn? and then there's an error msg.. that the cd was corrupted! like wat the! anyways.. so now i have another set of cds to try and install..
3)finish 206 lab...
4)THINK about my 327 proposal... in bed.. =)

and for tm....
1) print out all lectures notes for 206 and 245 wahahaha.. its been so long.
2) start 245 assignment
3) look for hydrology text? and read?
.........actually tm.. tm sinn suen... rite now i want... an orange... blah.. but the dog is sleeping.. argh.

hm.. yesterday was a long story.. speeding ticket at kennedy and 16th... so i was telling dada all about it.. that it was around like.. 2ish? and for the longest time.. no cops were ever there! and its not even end of month! anyways.. i shouldnt blame.. hm.. no more if's.. blah.. watever.

sooooo she was saying this morning.. she saw cops in the elementary school parking lot at the end of my street.. you see how EVIL these cops are... ai.... so many thieves.. ng catch.. have to come catch us..

ai.wannacry.. mo loi. blah.

*smile*

thnx for a great show =) thnx for inviting us, suzzz! it was a charity show to raise money for a project going on in haiti... u know how normally.. variety shows.. are.. dull and all.. well.. just no variety in it?! haha this one was soo hype! we had this girl who performed in cinderalla, and this jewish guy singing and we had some french songs and reggae going.. we had.. 'fitness 20'... hahaha and we had.. breakdancers!...

flo... argh says:
even in the audience.. we had such diversity its.... rarely seen in shows.. haha let alone.. cmc basement
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
hahahahah yeah
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
but u knwo what's funny? the breakdancer the cute one haha
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
he was like....there's a lotta asians out tehre
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
haHAHA
flo... argh says:
WELCOME TO THE>> ASIAN CHURCH@
haha
flo... argh says:
yo wat's his nameeee!
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
hahahah i don't know!!!!
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
i never found out
flo... argh says:
hahahahah
flo... argh says:
boooo
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
i better email mary clare and ask haha
flo... argh says:
haha that';s rite
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
he probz goes to ut tho
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
haha
flo... argh says:
u BETTER! hahaha
flo... argh says:
REALLIE?
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
hahaha MAKE IT HAPPEN FLO
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
haha
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
he can DAAAANCE too
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
hehehe
flo... argh says:
hahahahahaha
flo... argh says:
u have to see the smile on my face rite now
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
if u see him on the streets, just be like hey, weren't u at the variety show last wk? hahahh
Suzanne - walk with You always... says:
HAHAHAHA MUHAHAHA

sometimes.. these little silly convos and things just all add up and leave u with a smile, hehe as the reggae dude said.. "always remember to laugh!" as boo as some things might be, there's always a plan, and there are always always memories and moments to look back and just.. SMILE! =) friends, please be happy.

*happy bday eddieboo.. bday in sydney! uwin*

God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way...

just... take a second.. and let that sink in....... :)

...
also heard some news about Baby tonite... ian, dont be a bum! be there for ur sister... very boo indeed.

ian & suksuk at 5am = excel help =) ... crazy dudes *hon2*
.hm.hate.excel.stuck.

minor update: guess i should mention my half hour nap lasted til 4am...

just came back from my thanksgiving dinner.. haha sooooo fatttttt... =P makes me feel way too tired to start my assignment due tuesday (can someone hand it in for me... due before 5pm).... but my bed looks good.

to my big sis *grin*, thnx for always being a sweetie, you've never failed to make my day brighter! =P praying tm will be a happy sunny day for u! =)

booo my dad's leaving for hk tm.. only for a couple of weeks tho.. im feel so terrible.. i didnt even realize it when my mom went back to hk last year..

watched super nanny today.. those kids are.. wow.. we're such good kids compared to them! i should get my parents to watch it. would be so hilarious.

missing.boo.

sighhhh...

hm.. remember how people keep saying... as long as someone takes the time to yell at you, to be pissed at you, to hate you, that means they still care about u enough to at least.. put u in their thoughts. hmm.. never truly realized wat it meant.. to completely just.. not care.. after 11 years of waiting and defending him.. after the past 4 years of excitement and hopes.. and disappointments and tears.. it comes to this day.. that i truly dont care. september 18th.. it would've meant so much for me otherwise.. it was a good show, and maybe we were just too extremes in all that we do.. but everything was out of a good heart.. just.. *sigh*..

haha a vancouver fans gathering... why. im gonna stop explaining and justifying him, no more exceptions no more excuses for his doings, just watever. it was such a long journey.. that's coming to an end. at the end of his concert.. it said "just believe, dreams come true" and i agree completely.. that dreams DO come true.. not everyone's dream get to come true tho.. and definitely not ALL dreams, im sure everyone do get shattered dreams once in a while, the ones that u just cant piece back together; i'd rather be thinking that he actually WANTED to come but couldnt make it.. and not.. he came.. but didnt want to see us. its sad to think back at all the crazy moments.. and realize and see how different things are now.. i wish nothing happened.. that he never came and i'll just be here waiting for my kiddy dream to come true... because at least then everything will still be ideally in my mind...

終於做了這個決定 別人怎麼說我不理
只要你也一樣的肯定 我願意天涯海角都隨你去
我知道一切不容易 我的心一直溫習說服自己
最怕你忽然說要放棄

愛真的需要勇氣 來面對流言蜚語
只要你一個眼神肯定 我們的愛就有意義

如果我的堅強任性 會不小心傷害了你
你能不能溫柔提醒 我雖然心太急 更害怕錯過你

sooo jokes.

exam schedule

yee sent me the tentative exam schedule just now...

dec14 7pm
dec15 9am
dec16 9am
dec20 7pm
dec21 9am

wtf... dec 21.. haha its like CHRISTMAS already!

one good thing tho.. ANT253.. there are NO FINALS!.. and i went to class yesterday rite? hahaha.. the prof.. said that.. our final essay can be GROUP work.. and ppl are like.. so we can hand in ONE paper with 8 names?!.. and he said watever we want?! hahahaha... man.. i hope its true i hope its true.. haha.. its me scar yee and clarissa =)

the fishball song =)

today ended to be a happy daiB day... hehe MUST add oil tm!!! *30!*
and.. just to top off my day... here's another song! hahahha (express with feeeelings..)

魚蛋....魚蛋....
就像愛上你濃烈刺激一樣鹹
時常令你令你令你令你口渴吧
極具性格 而無奈未可當正餐
就像愛上你濃烈刺激一樣鹹

唔該魚蛋.....

thnx cindy for the song.. haha know me sooo well.. =P ... why. love fishballs =)

每一天都是新開始 每個挑戰都是感恩之始
我決心不執著世上事 再不憂心顧慮 活得欣喜

a B-e-autiful Sunday =)

had the urge to run through all my previous entries just now... not on blogger.. the ones on diaryland... they were dated all the way back to 2003 =) kinda funny the amount of details i use to blog.. now that im looking back.. its a very good reference of wat my life's been like for the past two years... probably got a tad bit more mature.. due to failures.. and that's about it

u know how when u were young, u'd have dreams and then u'd kinda think.. i'd be doing this and that.. when im 20 then when im 25.. i'd do this.. i remember thinking that being in the 20s was like a whole lightyear away.. i had all the dreams in the world.. and looking at me today.. i have nothing.. im still nothing.. and im closer to being nothing than ever.. looking at the degree that im barely hanging on to... seeing no light at the end of this.. maybe i was never persistent enough.. or i was too persistent at one point.. that it left me too little time to change.. watever it is.. i admit it was fully my fault and no one's to blame, cuz i know i could've worked harder for some things.. i could've tried harder.. but that's in the past.. i read my post and remembered how happy i was.. to pass stats finally =) and i remembered at that moment.. i've decided that my road downhill finally ended... im gonna move up from now on.. i will NOT let me repeat my failures.. and i will move on to believe i can do watever i want to do. i will i will i will.

just realized that there's never black or white.. no distinct boundary.. reality is grey.. we all set our personal border lines.. there are always exceptions, there are always issues to deal with, always something be considerate of but we're always just humans. anyways, sometimes when u step back and just take a look at ur own situation.. everything will seem more clear cut. an observer sees much more than when ur trapped within urself.. u'd try so hard to block things outta ur mind.. that it becomes unconciously done.. as much as we'd like to simplify life.. we complicate things all the time.. by thinking and rethinking the extra bits and bites of it all.... we all KNOW better... *sigh*... smile and pray.. and stay focus on wat's at hand =)

its funny that lately im feeling quite blessed and happy with my life, happier than i've been in awhile.. wat ever happens.. will happen.. watever happened.. is over.. life goes on =) its all about focus! hehe live in the present moment as Fr Leung/Ching would say.. seriously.. how many times have we heard "count ur blessings" hm... rite now ... i feel very at peace.. to be in good terms with my surroundings.. and my life. smile =)